Monday, February 29, 2016

Her Mother's Hope by Francine Rivers


512 pages

Favorite quotes:

"She had never been one to cling or depend solely on her husband, but he had become integral to her existence."
-Pg. 467

"She wanted to resist, but found herself surrendering herself to him again..."
-Pg. 17

Such an amazing portrayal of the deep misunderstandings that happen in relationships with different temperaments. Love is shown differently by different people.

2015 Reading List


Looking for Alaska by John Green
221 pages

Favorite quotes:

"You shall love your crooked neighbour with your crooked heart." (p.85)

"If people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane." (p. 88)

John Green is just a genius. I love that I don't really know what happened to Alaska and that I simply can make my own decision based on options given to me by the story.

JULY 2015

The Rules of Survival by Nancy Werlin

304 pages

Favorite quote:

"But I know that I'm not who I was supposed to be. Who I could have been. And I know it's because I was too afraid for too long." (p. 9-10)

Such an incredible story! This book broke my heart, because I work with kids who actually go through some of these things. I loved it!

The Six Rules of Maybe by Deb Caletti
352 pages

Favorite quote:
Some decisions are a struggle, a thrashing effort of back and forth, the tormented wakefulness and night sweats and tangles sheets of a bad night's sleep. But other decisions--there's a purity. There's a simplicity and rightness about the decision. It's the simplicity and rightness of air, of snow, of apples. Marrying you, Juliet, was that kind of decision for me. I made it with the straightforward ease of taking a drink of water, closing one's eyes to rest." (p. 172)

This was a pretty interesting book. It's not something I would read again, but interesting enough to keep me going, and to want to know what was going to happen next. 


JUNE 2015 READS:  
Forever by Judy Blume
224 pages.

Favorite quote:
"I wanted to tell him that I will never be sorry for loving him. That in a way I still do - that maybe I always will. I'll never regret one single thing we did together because what we had was very special. Maybe if we were ten years older it would have worked out differently. Maybe. I think it's just that I'm not ready for forever.” (p. 192)

This book is okay. I just find that it is most definitely inappropriate for young children and teenagers. I would say this is a book for adults. That being said, though, it is very realistic to "young love."

MARCH 2015
Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell
325 pages.
Favorite quotes:"Holding Eleanor's hand was like holding a butterfly. Or a heartbeat."
"No. I love your name. I don't want to cheat myself out of a single syllable."

I love the ending to this book, because it allows you to make what you want of the story.

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The Fault In Our Stars by John Green

313 Pages.

Favorite quote:

"I am not a mathematician, but I know this: There are infinite numbers between 0 and 1. There's .1 and .12 and .112 and infinite collection of others. Of course, there is a bigger infinite set of numbers between 0 and 2, or between 0 and a million. Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. A writer we used to like taught us that. There are days, many of them, when I resent the size of my unbounded set. I want more numbers than I'm likely to get, and God, I want more numbers for Augustus Waters than he got. But, Gus, my love, I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity."

Up until now, I only had one favorite fiction-writer. John Green has made it to that top that no one else has made it to. What an amazing read!

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

An Extra Penny

She packed her bags today
She wrapped the last box with tape
And sealed it with her tears
She wasn't ready to say goodbye

She feared two things:
1. That he would let her go
2. Or that he would fight for her.
But he let her go, quite easily.

Her heart collapsed at midnight
Her cells yelled and cursed her
Her whole body protested
And Her soul revolted
And then she remembered the story...

The story was actually short:
Of a man who loved pennies.
He wanted 100 of them.
And once found himself holding them.

He cherished those 100 pennies.
He kept them close to his heart.
He guarded them dearly.
He made them part of him.

One day he found an extra penny.
It was quite shiny, it glared.
He picked it up and added it to his collection.
But it was just an extra shiny penny.

That was one thought she couldn't inhale well
The realization of complete purposelessness.
After all, if he wanted 100 pennies...
And he already had 100 pennies...
That penny is just an extra penny
                                          No matter how shiny it is.

But she did stay...for a long time.
She stayed...
         While staring at a clock hoping for a little more time. None came.
          For another it did.
Would she mop her little bit of dignity begging for a little bit of him?
          She sure did.
She stayed ...
          Knowing that she was just a picture hanging on the wall.
She stayed. She could have taken the pain for all these hurtful things. realization settled in.

She couldn't offer him anything he didn't already have...
And when the many painful truths were laid out
                                                                     He didn't deny any of them.
His honesty was admirable.
Her pain so much anguish.
Why did grasping that hurt so much?

She was just there, but pointless.
Her existence meaningless.
And her presence unessential;
                      She has found that for some people she is extra special.
                      For him, she is just extra.

She didn't want to be the extra shiny penny anymore.
It hurt too much.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Unhappened Change

When a needed change doesn't happen, then you don't give the people in your life a deadline to change; you give yourself a deadline to make change happen--most likely in yourself. After that's done, and that still doesn't make an impacting change in the situation/relationship/issue, you STILL don't give people in your life a deadline to change; you give yourself a deadline to change the people in your life.

Fireworks & Sparklers

Some people are fireworks. 
Fireworks are loud and colorful, so attractive and drawers of attention. They explode in the sky, making the stars laugh, making the night wonder if darkness is real at all. At the expectation of fireworks, people's pupils dilate, extracting more light from the moon & stars; steadily, pupils await the light of the fireworks, and pupils narrow to the size of a dot--concentrating on the light that is painted on the expansion with fire, smoke, and creativity. Lights bounce on particles of oxygen, making lips take shapes and forms of awes and oos. They are loud, wonderful, colorful and they fill grey souls with a little wondrous bright joy.  

Some of us are sparklers.
We require some closeness to be appreciated and we can create wonderfully when held by someone's hand. Our defense mechanism is sharing little tiny sparks that sting as they touch others. It keeps people cautious: DO NOT get too close--stay away. Our light cannot be appreciated by those in the distance who see but a simple, lifeless wire, as cold as the temperature that surrounds it. Don't try to appreciate sparklers with binoculars.

You'll never get to see my many colorful sparks from afar. They can only be seen from up close. So if you're far, please remain don't know me.